Yes, I hate my family and I have a reason to it. Let me explain why:

My family, they don't understand me. Do you know that I have to ask to get things? I have to make amends. I have to deliver something. But I'm not talking about the current situation. It was before. I have always kept the past in me because I suffered the most during that time. My mistakes were blame directly at me. I made a lot of amends in the past just to contain myself for getting anything. I took short earn allowance and use it for my daily life. I don't waste my parents money on cigarettes, beers, entertainment, etc, I use my own allowance. Whenever shortage, I had to ask. I want things too but I get the guilt blame whenever I get things. My sisters don't.

Let me give you a situation, now my big sister supports themselves. How?? Boyfriends. I have to support myself. And they have no shame. And one of them, I not sure who, told my mother about this blog where I condemn my family. That was ages ago and it was anger of the moment. Yes, I still dislike most of my family members cause they are a busybody. And they keep track, I just got a new computer, 2.5k price. And that's when they tell my mother. They don't tell it before, always after I get something. Isn't that finding fault with me? When they get something new, I don't say much. Me, I want to get things, I buy at least part of it or pay at least part of it. My phone, it was 2k, I paid 800. My computer, 2.5k, I paid 500. My sisters, NOT A SINGLE CENT, PROBABLY ALL PAID FOR.

And yes, I kept quiet. The money I get, from my bank account, the money they allocated for me. My parents think they all paid for my education but the money is from loan which I myself have to pay back in the end. I'm not saying that 'It's my money, I should use it' no. But do you see the implications? I had to still fork out money not from them but from my account so I don't burden them. Yes, the money in the bank is theirs. When was the last time my sisters ever took out their own money for their laptops, handphone, etc. They always had something better than me and it's always after I get something better. I got a better laptop than my older sister from my uncle, her boyfriend bought a laptop for her. Her first laptop was paid by my parents.

When I wanted one myself they promised me one for college then after a few months start, I asked, got scolded, saying I don't need one. And they bought for my older sister one for college. Then my uncle gave me his old one, they just pretended nothing happened. Also, when I wanted a handphone way back, they didn't want to give me one. My aunt gave me in the end. I now had only own 5 handphones, 3 which isn't mine and one lost. But sisters get the phones from boyfriend, parent, God knows it's not from working. I gotten the new N97 since we had a lot of money selling our old house, my sister got an Iphone after that. Out of nowhere, my small sister got a touch screen phone when she's not legit to work.

Honestly, during my teens, I cannot remember what I gotten that is purely mine. I cannot. I mostly ask money to go out and so. Something that my sisters also does. But when my parents went broke, I was blamed. I don't get it why they even need money when their boyfriends gonna pay for everything. Then let's talk about the internet line. I ask, got scold. Sister ask, get. She ask 2mb, she gets. She ask 4mb, she gets. You see, it's hypocritical. When I ask, they say I don't need a faster internet speed. But when gotten cause of my sister and when I ask, my dad will say 'It's cheap.'. What the hell right!?

And my family are still bias. They always side my sisters and both of them can choose to disrespect them and nothing is done to them. When I do it, I get threats, constant complains for days. When I was young, I had to take it in. I still do but I burst out more often this time.

Anyway, I gonna restraint myself from writing too much. There's more things why I said that majority I hate my family. But you see, I hate them but I didn't say I hate all of them right? And I tell you this, I know a lot from about my family. And I'm not talking just about parents, sisters. I know a lot that you don't and that's why I hate my family. I never reveal any secrets. All those condemning and all ain't secrets, come on. Just because a few people don't know doesn't make it a secret.

And this topic is specially for the bitch of a sister. Yeah, I'm giving you more reasons to hate me so do what you want but please, just for mum's sake, don't let me know. Cause when I find out which one did this, I'm gonna make your life a living hell. And yeah, Gwen, it must be you and I hope it is cause I have more reason to hit you than your sister. If you want to fight with reasoning, come, face to face, don't coward off behind our parent. You are all talk, piece of rubbish.