I used to have a lot of addiction and habits. Habits like bitting my fingernails, which I totally stopped bitting. It feels different. I had alcohol addiction too but when I stopped, beer kinda turn into water which ruin the fun of it.

I went to stay with my uncle for 2 weeks but had to leave earlier because a lot of unfinished work in Penang. My uncle's house was great and all but it didn't lasted. There was total freedom there and I so want to be my uncle. He's like a single man with a wife. He buys things like it's water but he said he keep a budget (totally a lie). He got PS3, Nintendo Wii, Xbox, pool table, jacuzzi, 3 dogs, penthouse, several high end computers and laptop, a closet full of expensive watch, a train set that cost him about 15 grand, etc. And he told me he already bought a mansion. He's also the youngest of 9 other siblings. A successful computer engineer.

Someone I idolize and hopefully I can reach. Still, I need to stop my smoking addiction and seriously, smoking has lost it's meaning but I can't stop. I went there hoping to stop under my uncle's guidance but failed. I learn a lot in my trip there even if it's 2 weeks. My uncle gave me the freedom and responsibility to take care. He's good.

Anyway, I really still believe that my life when I was young was way better than before. I wish I could go back, when troubles were not there entirely or when I don't see it. Seeing it doesn't make it better, it's best unknown. Thanks for reading.

What really gets into my nerve is, Protestants are not only anti-Catholics, they got no other work to do than to bug me and give criticism to my religion when we are the true teachings of Christians. To me, their religion are close to be cease from existence because they are created not for 'religion purposes' but only to show a mockery as Christians.

Let me first get something clear first, Christians are divided into 5 groups, Roman Catholic, Anglicans, Oriental Orthodox, Eastern Orthodox and Protestants. Somehow in Malaysia, all those Christians that are not Roman Catholic are Protestants (including the other 3). This Protestants protested the Roman Catholic Churches saying that our teachings are corrupted, misguided, etc. Let me explain, corrupted, I can agree because the priests are human too, surely they some influence by the deadly sins. It may be true before but the church has already corrected their mistakes for so long ago. Misguided? Just because you Protestants cannot accept the moral values, you defy the religion that you were once in?

I can tell you why Protestants are wrong in so many ways too. Their so called missionaries (yes, a lot of Protestants go for missionaries) are a bunch of vacation time for them. What are missionaries? To spread Christianity to others, NOT to have fun or spread your religion among yourself. That's what masses are for. And their masses are all for mocking the Roman Catholics most of the time, not enforcing the religion. An example would be my non-Christian friend who spend 3 hours listening at least 2 hours on the wrong teachings of Roman Catholic.

And Protestants do not believe in hardwork, although they are hypocrites. They believe all hardwork done to gain something are not by that hardwork but by faith. Those lowly teenage Protestants didn't do this, well, I do. It was written by their 3 laws or something, no hidden meaning or anything. They do not pray to the cross, saying that it's an act of what people pray to rocks, sun and such. I told a Protestant to destroy their grandfather and grandmother's gravestone when they question and said that it's wrong to pray to the cross. Come on, the cross is merely a symbol of Christ.

Roman Catholic forbids divorce, terribly forbids and Protestants allows so. I feel that this teachings are like boundaries rather. I mean, is it wrong to forbid divorce? It's a good thing actually. Unlike the King of England who join Protestants only so he can have 6 wives (Henry VIII). Priest don't get married because they chose to dedicate to God and it's their choice. Protestants' pastor are allowed to get married and from where I read, 80% cannot commit themselves to both God or their wives, average pastor devoted is 14 years, etc. That's bad.

For once I think that Protestants are growing stronger, indeed but the population proves them and me wrong otherwise. Protestants are too lenient and surely teenagers like that. Roman Catholic are conservative but I still believe in them. I may not have devoted myself this few years, I still believe in the teachings. Still, Protestants are strict in certain ways but mostly all non-religious teachings. I have not seen a religion condemn their own religion so much as Protestants do. Protestants pray only to Jesus while we pray also to the other Saints, Angel, etc. Their teachings are but 2, Old and New Testaments. We also believe in those 2 and several others. Many more things we believe in and they said it's wrong. The thing is, the bible all together are created way before the 'proclaimed' corruption over the Roman Catholic Church but yet they choose only to believe in 2. It's like they are choosing what they feel is good for them only. FEEL, doesn't mean it's good.

I write this message to show my annoyance has reached to the highest of my limits. This is not all, personally, any Protestants can voice out, I don't mind but I do believe I have an answer to tell you why this and that. Hopefully, I can keep your mouth shut and realized that you are wrong. I gather a lot of information to defend myself and trust me, the Protestants I know, nothing new from them. Anyway, thanks for reading!