And then I'm free! Cracking my head to find out how to get a part-time job. Friend recommended a work at home job but not sure can or not. Each assignments, can get about RM250, estimate 3 days to complete. 1 day would be able to finish but I don't want to get my hopes high. Like what my Singh friends would call me, Chinaman, cause everything I think is about making money....... Who doesn't. Lol. Speaking of which, list of nicknames my friend call me. Don, Ah Don, The Don, Chinaman, Duck (Hokkien & English), Tai lor (cause I walk like one), Ah Long (same reason). Lol.

And my diet has been really really unhealthy. Got scolded by my cousin and mum for eating too much. At least I'm still fit. Going to gym like what my cousin recommended is a bad idea, muscle cramp 2 days later. I haven't had any good sleep, each time I think of something, I dreamed of weird stuff. Oh yeah, did a little wrestling with Tjun Yan that night in the party and I won! Evidence that I'm growing stronger. USED TO BE THE WEAKEST. Now in term of strength, I beat Lye Boon and Tjun Yan. Next target, Jindhu and I will save next year for Eng Wooi. He's too strong. At least 3 placing out of 5 =D Also, the gym I went has body combat classes which I'm damn interested to join. Whatever body combat is, it's combat!

Today, I woke up, luckily. It was a nightmare! I dreamed that my family suddenly moved to Singapore and I left together with them without telling anyone. I was like so sad in this forsaken dream, knock myself to sleep in the bloody dream several times. Wow, it felt damn real.

And since Division 2 for Floorball is coming, I will be playing centre. I wanted defense cause I'm good in defense but my manager Alex told me centre. Have to obey. That means more stamina needed! We will be playing at Red Crescent/St. John, near the Air Itam road, more to Rifle Range there. Every Sunday, morning till evening. Be sure to come! Also, visit this website http://fieryfloorballers.blogspot.com/ for more info. My cousin and I are in blue =D It's a new club that I join. Firebrands. Although I got 2nd team, I need to struggle to play in Division 2 and hopefully can join 1st team quick.

Take care!~

So, I head to Queensbay to meet up with my cousin. Walked around, window shopping and then we both went to gym. Start training my legs mostly, followed my cousin's sets and God, it's hurts right now. All aching. Anyway, I'm a little buff if I may add =D

Went home, took a big long shower. Then my friends tried prank calling me, it didn't work even the first time that did it. Anyhow, they revealed themselves and told me my picture is in the Firebrands Floorball blog. I counted 4 times in the pictures =d Apparently, I was 'caught' doing illegal moves like jumping but I doubt. Then I had time for the party (Lye Boon's) so I went to Salvation book store and meet up with this prank callers. Damn, they used the workplace's phone to call.

I had some talk about my religion against Christians. Let me tell you this, before you go about my religion when you're a Christian, be wary that I have never lost once before debating over this issue. And what I say is only my words and my words only, that can defeat you and each time you can't answer me or change the topic, you are disgracing yourself as a Christian. I never went Roman Catholic on you so please don't bother me. You pray to Christ, I pray to some others and not only Christ. You penalized us for praying towards the Cross, the thing that the Romans used to crucified Jesus, which is insulting to Christians. This issue is nothing new so I have develop an answer, "We praying to the Cross cause it's a symbol of Jesus and if you don't agree with me, go to your grandfather and grandmother's gravestone and break it cause that acts like the Cross too". To be frank, Christians are very headache-ish and again I emphasize, if your religion is so strong, you won't need followers to convert people. That's all I have to say about this.

Next, I headed to the party, something happen, a little too much to drink. I wrestle with Tjun Yan, lost to his MasterLock but beat him overall! That's an achievement! No more that small dude you all used to know me. A few people came and Yin Yee was the only girl there. Tried to call her to drink, failed miserably. I kept losing in cards and the bad part is, if Yin Yee lose, nothing happens but if she wins, she choose who drinks. If anyone of us wins, the lowest number of the rest drinks. I got so unlucky, I got picked and lost. Until one part, I told Lye Boon I couldn't drink cause I was at my limit. He volunteered to drink for me but he drank even when I didn't lose! After awhile, when I thought I was okay, I drank Tequila and bang! I fall on the couch and slept till 6. Everyone left and I also decided to. My body aches, my stomach gas (as in pain gas), hangover like nobody's business. By far this is the worst hangover cause never before I drank so many different types of alcohol in one go.

I was hungry and as usual, I need a partner to eat with. Headed to Upper Penang Road and find my friend. Went around the city just to find CHINESE FOOD to eat but all the usual dim sum which I don't want to eat. So, I decided on a relaxed, ECONOMY RICE! Cannot find one and had to give up on NS Nasi Kandar, opposite Heritage Hotel. You know the pain when women has when the baby about to come out? Contraction? I understand their pain now....... Mum called, surprisingly. Usually 24 hours after I left the house. Told her I was drunk so I stayed at a friend's. Obviously she didn't take it too well. Got home, I was bathing and she came lecturing me about entertaining people, I should only drink a glass! Wow, I don't think that's humanly impossible! Hahaha

See ya guys =d

Let's talk about this few days. I thought it has became better but at times I felt it didn't. I became very very crazy, deep down it's because I lost my phone. I didn't cried, that's a surprise but I know I'm hurt deep down inside. After the incident, I became a bit psycho. I began to think I lost my stuffs but I didn't. I lost my keys when I put it where I always do. Then I thought I lost my wallet when it's in my pocket. The thing is, I know I'm going crazy cause I check my pockets 4 times, touched it 4 times and still think I lost it. I also began to forget and make appointments I can't promise. Short term memory lost. I don't know whether it's because of the lack of sleep or trauma. Lately, I gotten weak, can't find a way to get up from my bed. It's like numb so I stretch on my bed before I can't feel the numbness. My eye sight is really bad and I smoke like water since I last stopped.

Then I broke my hard drive, lost my specs. Suddenly, my money is all gone. I had like 500 bucks, all gone. I really don't know what am I doing. So that I can be fully rested, I contain myself at home most of the time. Like a psycho ward, my room that is. But even that, tension came cause internet has been crazy. My laptop is giving problems and my dad always downloads stuff. That cause my laptop to get slow and unstable connection. Constantly disconnecting. Then I started playing Floorball to calm myself. Didn't have the breath and stamina. Wish I can stop smoking soon. At this time of the season, I think I might go for jogging and church. It's been long since I turn myself to God. I better give it a try.

Will update on progress, take care.....

Sorry if you can't contact me and right now, I'm a bit tipsy. Sorry if you can't contact me, sorry wei...

That's all folks

But my CNY is better this year compared to 2009. I'm now a member of the floorball division 2, scouted by my friend. I actually never played floorball in my life but it's a game not hard to master. It's like hockey, only more gentle and I like that. Lol. I convinced my cousin, Sherwynd, to rejoin floorball. Together, we shall put our jersey, S.Kessler and D.Kessler, the Kessler's duo. We are afterall the oldest guys in the family bearing the name =P My cousin's jersey number would either be 4 or 6 so I'm taking 46 =D

Aside from that, CNY has been hectic. I've touched alcohol for 6 days straight now. I became to be fond to alcohol again. I used to love alcohol like mad until something good came into my life and I stopped for that. Can't bear to ruin that. Now that I'm not attached to it, it's feels good again. Thank God I have a fear of brandy. In this 6 days, I have drank with the scouts, my cousins, my family, my friends. Yesterday we had a farewell party for Saik Ian and Ashley. They will be going to KL but Ashley already left. First bottle was brandy, Hennesy VSOP, which I fear most. I have another party gathering with Eugene to attend after that and I was driving so I control on the whiskey. Right after the whiskey finishes, the beers, Black Label and Vodka respectively. I stopped on beers. About 1, I went and find Eugene.

Gamble with Eugene for awhile, he lost big time, as usual. When for Nasi Kandar and saw Gregson there. Seeing Gregson comes like a package cause I also saw Shen and 2 others guys (1 my junior). They left early and we both stayed until 6. I reached home around 7, slept until now. My body was so tired and I nearly fall asleep while driving. Took the longest nap since I don't know when. Woke up around 4, hang around the house. I don't have plans actually but I was planning on meeting a friend at 7am.

Although it's CNY only, let's make some amendments and see what I have achieved so far.

For now, this is what I can think of. I'm going to try to stop smoking again. Gonna try for myself and for someone dear to me. xD <<< (I think I'm influence with smileys already)

Anyway, take care xD <<< (Yet again)

Well, lesson learned, I'm never going to stand foot in SS...... Willingly... Lol. I still prefer QE2 and the best part of it, I'm going there tomorrow after more than half a year. Thank God my friends are still there so I can enjoy there.

Recently, I head back to my 'hometown' in Bukit Gelugor. Right after I left, the place has been blacklisted by the police. Even just for chilling there, 6-7 policemen came to me and checked my documents. Obviously I'm clean. Then I heard rumours that the former Mastermind of Gelugor has been caught and entered prison and due to that, Tanjung Bungah gang has turned Gelugor into a drug hive. Taking over a place that you held for so long is apparently impossible for my friends. It's also good, now that there cannot do anything, they slowly left the area and become good. Luckily I came out. Eventhough so, it took months for the Tanjung Bungah gang to actually conquer the place......... Obviously one day I will come back and we shall turn it back to our original port. My place of stress free, lol, used to be.

Now I have a million reasons more than the previous million reason, not to enter gangsterism. Firstly, I can fight but I don't think I can win. Second, weapons, bias, big numbers, are always involved. Thirdly, gangster have learn martial arts (a bit advance). I just have lots of friends involved in the business. Sadly enough, I got into troubles at times when I'm not involved. I wonder sometime when I'll end up in the hospital. I got lucky though at times where I went off 'earlier' before the fights occur. One thing I love about this friends, all of them are in the process of turning good. They still are more hot headed than me so I'm not so hot headed anymore =D Time to time when I somehow got involved in fights, I had to call in for protection and luckily without any conditions. Each time after a problem was said to be 'solved', I have to be wary of everything and I always carry a thing that I can use as a weapon just in case.

Anyway, some of my friends got into really big troubles, mostly because of another gangs. The world is like in the movies, you can't simply sit around on enemies' territory eventhough that's not their grounds. Even I won't do that cause I still bear Bukit Gelugor people. Thank God my contacts are powerful enough to stop this casual disturbance occur because of misunderstandings. Just because you bump into the guy's girl, you can get yourself chopped. The only problem is, when this things happen, I must survive the first few tens of minutes. So, I learn a bit of tactics to fight a person.

Firstly, try not to get hit by the first punch. Anything but the first punch cause that's the most strongest punch during that time. It's also very very fatal if the person misses so beware. Second, apologies if you did it, never if you didn't. You will lose grounds and vengeances are the one making you more involved. If you are wrong and the first apologies isn't accepted, embrace and prepare yourself. Third, when outnumbered and facing with the top guns, play tactics but be cool. The more you tension, the harder you can think. Try for a one on one, challenge cowardice. Rather than get beaten by 20 guys, it's better 1 do all the work. Don't be a hero and fight a battle you can never win when you might have chance to win a war. Leaders are easily offended and the best way is one on one. Make an agreement like, if I lose, I apologies but if I win, I walk away unharm after that. Pride is guys most valuable thing. Fourth, live to survive another day. Have that thought and you can survive. With that, you won't revenge that much because if you do revenge, the next can't make you as lucky as before.

Anyway, thanks for reading xP

It's barely a month she's been with this new guy and problems started to arise. At first when she got him, she didn't at all talked to my cousin. Just about 2 weeks ago, she started asking my cousin out and all. Apparently, it's the boy that couldn't spend time with her and he's too controlling her personal life. He wants to be aware with every single details like personal messages, presents, IM, etc. Obviously she would complain to her 2 and a half years ex-boyfriend but this isn't a good thing either. My cousin still very much loves her but he somehow don't wish to want her back because he knows her to well and don't wish to get hurt. I kept on asking him and he still denies wanting her back.

From the trip at my house till Sunset Bistro, she was treated like a queen. He opens the door for her, wear her safety beat, teman her to talk every single time. It's like they are not even in the group. Then when we reach the bistro, he set the chair for her, pour her the beer, drank for her the beer when she can't take it, etc. She even called him to have a private talk with her, he still layan her. They talked about the new boyfriend. I don't get it but my friends said this is plain stupid. He manja her last time, doing it the same now. How can she change for the better good when the problem is her manja? Every time I asked him to just give her excuse, he in the end didn't do it. He's a person that very hard to say no to her. Then my cousin would purposely show his attitude of bad ass in front of her, talk dirty and such just to demote her. Apparently she knows that and played along. Go like, "Yeah, last time also he like that". Every time my cousin heard that, he kept quiet for awhile. Stunned. Lol

Then we headed to MacDonalds. Emily's boyfriend had called in earlier and volunteered to fetch her home. My cousin asked the guy not to come upstairs. Funny part is, he didn't dare come out also. This guy is some PFS guy, about 3 years older than me. From what I know even from Emily's own face expression, he isn't doing good at being a boyfriend. Lately I've been mixing with my cousin a lot and he showed me an album of their 654 days together. Lol, I could remember the number cause it's only backwards. He damn sad face later. I also don't know what to do. He kept saying he doesn't want her back but he still thinks of her. She is his 3rd I believe, the longest by far. Luckily not the worst. Hahaha.

At least the story didn't end up with him scolding her. He wanted to do it, scold her while telling her that he don't wishes to hear her problem. I'm not a fan of scolding girls (although sometimes I do) but she didn't do anything wrong but manja only. Is that valid reason? In the end, he got soften by her. A bodybuilder, tough flirtious guy I used to know, soften like hell. I wouldn't say that I won't become like him cause it never happened to me before. My stress right now is that same girl which will not probably change her attitude of overly happy go lucky. The same problem I had with my first love. Luckily she's not wild like the former. She's nice, overly goodie goodie girl which isn't a problem. Only the committing problem I might face. I thought I seen the world but she amazes me every single time. She's that one girl that will never bores you cause it's not the same topic or anything every day. That's what sparks inside my heart. Now she already knows about me liking her and all and it's just too early. Her friends all knew after interrogating me like hell. Apparently they teased her with me long before they find out the truth. Luckily I cover my tracks too well but not like last time when it was near perfection =D

Anyway, thanks for reading. Oh yeah, this blog isn't known by her and I wish to keep it that way. Consider it a personal online diary although I don't know if I got readers or not =D

Anyway, no need to talk about my job. We went to Gurney and watched Spy Next Door. Nice show, cut short, it's a great show. Must watch. I don't really have the mood to blog so I will have to cut it really short again.

Bye guys =D

Anyhow, today wasn't such a great day. It may look like one but the end was a little crazy. I went to work and this group of foreigners was up on the roof, partying. They might had a little too much booze and got havoc. Not too rowdy, just the casual dancing and noises. I had to warn them a few times before they decided to go else where. They all don't know each other and just met. Then they came down to the lobby, I chat with one of them. Nice people actually. Only noisy. A guy offered me vodka so I drank a sip before this girl stole the vodka. Lol.

Then I stayed in the hotel while my partner brought them to a nearby bar. Over there, they find fault with the local gangsters. My partner luckily settled them. He was drunk after drinking a sip, what the hell right!? After the guys left back, he started showing all his attitude on me. Started jumping on the car in front of the hotel and mumbling nonsense to me. He memang drunk already then asking and telling me stupid stuff. That's why I hate drunk people. My partner is a nice guy but I really don't like him in his drunken state. Oh well, hopefully he grows sober cause I got 5 more hours with him!

Anyway, well update on my facebook picture. Take care =D

I went to the exam hall, took a deep breath, sat and did the exam. Nearly all of the questions gave as tips didn't come out, not like I really studied anyway. I was more determined that I would score when it comes to politics and yes, dream came true. I took 2 hours out of the 3 hours to complete entirely. I did all the questions, whether it's correct, I wouldn't know. My lecturer has this thing for playing students, he would purposely give questions so related in objectives that you wouldn't know who to choose. Luckily I did and confirm I got at least half of them correct (20/40). I just need to score in essay which I pretty much talk the same thing over and over again.

I might reconsider soon to get some side incomes, I was thinking over my friend's proposal and I would maybe take up or bargain an offer to become a journalist. Control over Penang's articles? I was so broke last week but luckily this week I'm very stable. I still have some 'debts' to repay. Mostly I need to offer something to my friends and family for paying some of my food or go enjoy time. Like my tuition fees.......... I might need to wait up for that since it's a lot to pay. I read through my subjects next semester and I'm very happy about my subjects. Finally, COMPUTER STUFF!

And guess what??????? My oji-san is coming back! It's been what, 3 years!? Yeah, oto-san is coming back! My Japanese uncle is coming to Penang to visit and the moment my aunt said we are gonna go eat seafood (which I don't like), I didn't care! We're not blood related and all, just my aunt's friend but he's a dear family friend. Used to come over when I was small and all. So, yeah, I'm happy he came down to visit.

About my health, it's not declining too much compared to last time. I still am constantly tired and full with fatigues. I think I overcome coldness, even experiment with it. I used to be unable to take a shower when there's no hot water. But I tried using hot water, slowly reducing the temperature time to time until no presences of heat. And I discovered that, using fire with water...... Not such a good idea. When I bath during a cold whether, I would not feel cold after a cold bath. I would feel if I took a hot bath. So, fire with fire it is.

Again, internet is being troublesome once again so I'm taking my leave. Till then,