Sunday, January 31, 2010
Today, right after work, I head to meet up my friend again. We were discussing about problems on his news agency and I gave several ideas to help improve it. I glad I did able to help me, good guys really need a breakthrough. Still, I wish I could help more. With his life putting through, I feel glad that I don't hold too much responsibility in life. I somewhat envy this people who can really last for years and never gave up. All they did is look forward, I can't. I dear things in the past to keep me who I am and who I really really am.
Then my uncle and aunt came to visit my 3rd aunt so I join them and we talked. A lot of problems here and there with my family (other side). My own family (Kessler) has problems but of course different kinda problems. And then I kinda regretted that I didn't learn enough Hokkien and Madarin to understand. A lot of words I still don't understand but I still can communicate with them (rojak Hokkien).
Anyhow, not much about today. Thanks for reading xD
posted at 11:06 PM
Went to Thaipulsam today. Very exciting, get to see the chief minister! My friend is a journalist and he was hired by this company to ask a question to the CM. We were extremely late and so we practically ran from one corner of the place to the foot of the main temple. When we got there, it haven't even started yet. My friend got so dizzy and he decided to make a backup plan, me! He wants me, on his behalf, ask a few questions to the CM, regarding about bio-degradable products. The best advantage is my friend is white and he comes from our twin city in South Australia. He's more recongnized by our Deputy CM and they actually took so long with their speech. As usual, our CM gave a mind blasting speech. Right after they were done, no press conference! All but one of the press left. Obviously that one was my friend. Somehow, I didn't know I was actually standing beside the CM's secretary. My friend pulled some strings and the Deputy CM asked the CM for a favour, to allow my friend to get his news. And so, the deal was sealed.
After that, my friend and I decided to grab something to eat. We were eating while discussing about some issues. Apparently, this issue will go big and my friend wants to get the scoop out of it. He asked me for some ideas regarding the name creation for the new company which I seriously can't remember. Something 2G as in 2 Green (can't remember the first letter, blur right now). It was fun but somewhat lucky since I didn't have to ask the CM the questions like what the reporters do! We discussed hell a lot. Of course I won't enclose any more details on it. It was really a good experience but I must say, being the press, they are not as professional as I thought they are. They have prepared questions, not by them but by their company. Really unprofessional cause I really saw and heard them from behind. They look very young though.
Nevertheless, I manage to see our CM, DCM and Tiger of Jelutong! Plus, I meet first hand the CEO of the bio-degradable company. Very modest guy. Anyway, it's worth a story told, take care folks. Bye xD
posted at 7:57 AM
Saturday, January 30, 2010
One of those days where I might consider rulling out a no-confidence vote. The girl I like, isn't the one I was looking for after all. She's......................... Over childish............ Something changeable, I think. We all have our own problems, like she don't want to be committed and all. Apparently, she haven't loved anyone before. Even I could see that. She's the type you can read like a book but amazes you in every page. Lol, sounds too good to be true. A true happy go lucky that would never be sad, would lighten up your day anytime. Only problem is, committing to a serious relationship would be close to impossible from her. A committed relationship is by far, what I want most out of a girl. If she couldn't give me that, I might give up and pretty soon too. This is really a dilemma for me.
Anyway, this is consider the first time I got a sneakers and the time where I got more than 2 shoes at a time. I usually buy like 2 pairs and stick to it until it's worn out. And as of January 2010, I spend hell a lot, more than all the years. How I got the money, I also don't know. My life is getting more and more boring, there's nothing to do in Penang anymore. Have the feeling to run to KL once I'm done with my studies. Lately, having some problems with my friends or i think I have a problem with them. Anyhow, I just want to start anew, leave everyone and just forget the world. Penang right now is seriously a place I want to forget, too much bad memories and failure. Just like what a person I known for 8 years now once told me. I wrote an essay about that person!
Sometimes you feel like you want to leave and just push aside everything, just so you can move forward. In life, I want to be reminded, when I'm gone or when I'm not around anymore. That's my wish since forever. Maybe too much drama already. But I believe that's what I'm since the beginning, an attention seeker. Lol
Take care, enjoy but keep it safe =D
posted at 2:59 AM
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Monday was a blast. Obviously cause she's involved. So, I took her and her friend along. First thing first, fetch her from her house and to her friend's house
I would say that it's worth spending there cause the food is great. Honestly. It's cheap for 3 people and I was quite surprised. We went over to Swensen's cause she can get discount for ice cream. But now I'm a dilemma, I can't be like those boy that can easily mix with girls kinda thing. I can be a boy but not close close kinda boy who talks about girls stuff to girls. Those 2 were talking about girls stuff and I kinda grow tension when they went talking about hot boys. NOW I KNOW WHAT GIRLS TALK ABOUT. This girls are like boys, they talk about hot guys that they saw.
After that, we went to meet a friend, which the friend haven't met a long time. He sengaja tell them that he heard a lot of stories about 'her' from me. I had to cover up but I think she suspect something..... Oh well,
Goodnight =D
posted at 1:45 AM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Today was a freaking tiring day. Right after work, I rest for a bit and straight when to duty. My hair was so long that it really is a burden to work. About 12-15 people were there (St Nicolas). After duty, we head to Fatty Loh Chicken Rice to eat. Waited for so long to eat but we keep to our principles, we must wait for everyone's food to reach on the table. As usual, Sumay teeth gatal, grab some rice to eat and drank the soup without waiting.
After eating, only me, Eng Wooi and 'her' went to Gurney. Yeah, I notice that I have been talking about her too often. I have a 'date' with her on Monday and with another girl. I really don't know what I'm doing, it just came out of my mind. Anyway, we went to eat again, memang she very senang hungry mia. I really think that I should change my working time so I can spend time with her more. Anyway, we went jalan-jalan for quite sometime before she went off to work. I guess her work is kinda flexible.
Right after she left for work, Tian Hong arrived. Then both Tian Hong and Eng Wooi was criticizing my hair so I finally decided to not wait anymore. We went all around Gurney to cut my hair since we have to wait until the girls finish their work and the hair cut is so God damn expensive. We walked around and decided to go to Midlands. I settle with a RM25 haircut. Pretty short right now. Then it's to present myself to her after her work is done. I head home for a bit, took a nice shower and came back to Gurney. All freshen up, the other girls group up (Sau Cheng, Sumay, Jia Yi, Chi Lin) to go eat supper.
Out of the 3 girls, they were surprised that I cut my hair cause it's been only a few hours since they last saw me. Yes, 3 out of 4 girls. She didn't realized it but it's kinda expected. When we were walking towards the hawker food beside Gurney, she quietly walked beside me and asked me the reason I cut my hair whether was it because she said my hair was too long? She noticed? I really can't read what's in her mind, too confusing. I don't know about that but I cut because it's really annoying, it would be sweet to her though if she thought I cut because she doesn't like it. Lol.
I was quite confuse, as usual, I didn't get to talk to her much. But I do talk to her 'a lot' on messaging or calls. But our subject is mostly food and food and food. And about the game that the girls were playing, that game was actually created by Eng Wooi. He finally told me about it and it's a shock that 'she would consider me as a partner'. I really got to find a chance to be alone with her, too much interruptions. Always had a chance then poof*, something happens. Oh well.........
And now the Rovers is kinda having a special bond thing. When a scouter has a girlfriend, the girlfriend usually also active in Rovers or either way around. That way, it's always a pair. Something I would do but not openly do. The thing is, seeing your lover every single time isn't what you want. It's always the judgement of any sides that worsen the relationship. That's why you can't always be in the same 'working' place. I just wish that everything would be over and I get her. She's really active in Rovers now. Too active that I might need her as my replacement =D Lol.
Anyway, thanks for reading =D
posted at 11:55 PM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I had a nightmare, one that I would never forget forever. I couldn't remember the dream before but what I remembered, I would just tell it out. No names of course.
I was surfing my regular scandal website, the ones that whenever an unsure scandal you want to know, you can just view that website, cause it's all true and no cover ups. As I was browsing, I saw a girl, she was getting raped. I noticed that face everywhere. She was forced and I'm sure it's unwillingly. At the end of the video, it shows the part where she first approached him. It was a place next to the road, that guy was near the road railing. She was jokingly saying to this guy that there's a guy across the road, could be a rapist. Turns out that he was a rapist instead. The good thing was, he let her go.
As usual, I would call her and again as usual (I don't get girls), they usually don't pickup the phone at first ring. She probably got fed up and only then she picked up. I asked her with that tone of voice I do and always asked her to promise to tell me something before the question even came out. When I asked, she paused and later when lalala~. Typical of her but at this time? She then paused for quite sometime, like she was keeping a secret and wanting it to forget. I forced her to give me information and I would find that guy for revenge. I really couldn't stand it when my friend got hurt. I remembered that torture so clearly that it would be awful to mention it here.
Then I woke up, way before getting revenge. Here's the thing, there are 2 parts of the dream, the weird one that you cannot control and the one that you think in your mind (the control and created one). Since I woke up, I came out of that controlled dream. I was really scared, angry and all still. If that really happen to her, how would I react? I cherish friendship sometimes above even my family and lover. I did something childish I guess. I closed my eyes, dreamed about what happen next (created one) and she telling me the location of the place she got raped. Oh yeah, she's a smart girl, she manage to still his wallet and gotten his IC but the police won't do a God damn thing. I brought her along to that place, we were in the car and at that place, there were 2 guys (I probably think it's the rapist and the other guy that was suspect as the rapist). She was really crying, I never did saw her cry before. I went out of the car and woke up again.... In the end, I couldn't do anything.
Be safe you guys, suspect every guy as a rapist, you never know. That's the mistake my friend did.
Take care.............
posted at 7:49 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Today was freaking weird. I dreamed of me being inside a mansion, owned by an Indian family. Not like our locals, more like from India, Indians. Something about this 2 girls, losing their father and they would play something to remind them of their father. They would wait by the phone, hoping that their father would call. My dream ended then.
Mondays are not my day. I woke up, couldn't move nor could I stand. I was dead tired and my right leg was in hell pain. I ate before I go to sleep so my energy was totally drained. I skipped 1 class today and went for the afternoon class. I was so stress up about the project that we have to do, I couldn't think.... I suddenly walked up the stairs from the ground floor till the 4th floor when I could easily used the lift. I walked from 5th floor to 4th floor and to 2nd floor multiple times, finding for my lecturer. I really couldn't remember why I haven't used the lift.
I got home as usual, dead tired. Took my bath and all, off the lights. But I didn't want to sleep. I got up, on the lights, when for a drink, off the lights and did the same whole process twice. I decided to watch some shows to cool myself down. That's when I found out something good and bad at the same time.
A friend of mine, a very straightforward girl, knows about me smoking and is the girl that I told some of my secrets to and is a friend to the girl I like. I don't mind telling secrets actually, only if you made it a secret. Since she was straightforward, it wouldn't be much a surprise that she spoken out about my habit, not that it matters cause it wasn't really a secret since I post it myself at facebook that I smoke. The girl I liked, kinda freaked out......... Now that's a problem. Now it's like the 2nd person I really have to explained to properly. That friend of mine revealed one secret though. They played a game and picked a list of boys that whether they would be a possibility that she will be with the list of boys. It was yes to me at least, along with some other guys....... At this point I'm stuck on heaven or hell. But I don't really care, I just don't want a bad impression so I explained to her. Luckily it wasn't too bad.............. I THINK......... Seems to her that my innocent looks deceived her....... INDEED IT DECEIVE PEOPLE!? I don't know but one thing is for sure, I'm not that innocent as you that don't really knows me well. I'm honestly not innocent but I'm good =D
Now my main focus is my project, finals and leg. I really fear that I cannot play football anymore. Actually, at times, I think my leg just can't support my new heavier body...... MAYBE...
Lol, anyway, gotta run! Thanks for reading!
posted at 12:22 AM
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Today memang a sad day in the end. Since I promised to eat with my cousin, so we went Swensen's again. Conclusion, it's a nice place to bring your love ones to go, more like a treating thing rather than a special day. She was obviously working also =D Well, not that I'm stalking or anything, I just came down to finish my pizza coupon but........ She didn't tell me one thing....... I thought I must order RM30 and above to entitle to use my pizza coupon. So I also ordered and the bill came around RM60+. Then I received another coupon which I was wondering. Obviously I don't want to come again cause she will feel weird and all. So, I thought they forgotten to get my coupon so I called her and asked her. Indeed they forgotten but I was issued another coupon........... WTH!?
Well, for every RM30, I get another pizza and not the other way around! Now I have to come again but the food is good and normal prize actually. I wonder why people don't come around and eat in restaurants. I thought it would be so damn expensive but it's consider very cheap to me! Even Chili's is cheap. I ordered breaded chicken something and ice lemon tea. My cousin ordered salad and coffee. Since I always wanted to try clam chowder, so I add another order. Which is okay only. I really prefer the chicken and salad (yeah, I curi some). During that time where I was talking with my cousin, my cousin was teaching me all the how to get a girl thing. He told me not to come Swensen's anymore, as it would be weird like what I thought. But then, it wasn't I who came willingly but she asked me to. Every chance she had, she would talk to me and show her cuts on her arm during working time. We got a little chance to talk eventhough her supervisor and manager was around. I got the come again thing from her since she knew I got another pizza coupon. I will come again perhaps cause me and my cousin must eat more of the food to understand the potential 'date' place (that's how he would say it). I was thinking maybe the last thing before I move on to another step.
My cousin too told me that I have chance with her and noticed that whenever I'm around, she couldn't focus her work and thing. Obviously I don't believe it cause she never worked as a waitress before. He would teach me things and all but I think I will do it my way. Oh well, my way is always slow and steady but I think I will push a little faster this time. I can't wait until she goes to National Service. I jokingly asked her to join me in my college and she actually agreed but I told her not to since this isn't what she would want. Like others, she wanted to become an air stewardess which I would surely object. The course is ridiculously pointless and waste of money. In my heart, if she becomes an air stewardess, I wouldn't tolerate being alone. Luckily she said she have given up that hopes but now she is clueless on what she want to become. I gave her choices and she simply agreed with me. I really really don't understand her.......
After (what do you call between lunch and dinner?), I went to play football with my ex-brother-in-law (it's practically revenge for calling me his son-in-law). Just 5 minutes, I injured my right thigh, an injury I got on Friday for nothing. I still continued playing though and gave 2 goals to the opponent. I was limping at the defenses and even bit my own tongue. It was really painful. Now that my right leg is also injured, I think I have to stop football again. Like what my friend told me last time, if football is so dangerous, why play? I still cannot give her a good answer right until now too.
Oh well, thanks for reading =D
posted at 7:58 PM
Friday, January 15, 2010
Hehehe, my uncle suddenly wants to come down to Penang and we went to Gurney Drive to meet up. My uncle went, "What you want to eat?" soooo, I took my chance and say Swensen's! I met that girl there, actually I felt so damn shy but what the hell! At least I kept my promise! My uncle was wondering why I chose Swensen's so I told him it's a promise. When he found out it was a girl, I revealed to him the secret. Knowing this, he lagi want to meet the girl. Lol.
I went only, next to the table I was about to sit, I recongnized her appearance from the back (no, I wasn't staring at the butt!). When she turned, she's like happy to meet me =D So, she served us. I open the menu, didn't know what to choose. My uncle asked me to choose an ice cream and a food. I actually knew he's gonna eat in a restaurant so I was thinking why not fulfill my promise? When I open the menu, she terus recommend this and that. Lol. When he had a chance, he tried to korek information about her from her. And she told my uncle everything he wants to know. I had to play cool. I ordered at first a simple soup cause I already ate fried noodles and chee chong fun about an hour gap. Then my uncle went "Eat something else lah" so I picked the Hawai Pizza, big mistake!
I suffered from getting forced to eat my pizza. She thought we both are eating it. We ordered banana split, pizza (for me), salad and tower ice-cream (uncle). Luckily I finished it and got saluted. Lol. She's a bit shy and all, I just make don't know. So sweet =D Went home, smiled and then straight to work. Lol. She was so tired so I let her to sleep. Lol.
Too be continued =D
posted at 11:29 PM
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Lol, last Wednesday (that is yesterday), I went to Penang Bowling. Suddenly the girls wanted to go bowling and lucky for me class got postpone. Note to self, when they plan on 6 or 7, come around 6.30! Waited for 30 minutes there.
The people who came is myself, Sumay, Jia Yi, Chi Lin, Saik Ian, Aaron and Tian Hong. So, we went bowling, too bad Yvonne went to Australia already. Food is seriously expensive there. Fried mixed vegie, RM10............. WHO WILL BUY!?
So, they arrived around 6.30, waited for awhile until we got a free lane. Then Tian Hong didn't play cause only 6 people is allowed. This is my 4th time playing so I suck really bad. First round, I got 4th out of 6th. Sumay, the supposedly pro, didn't play like what she say she would. Lol. I masuk lokang God knows how many times but still made it 4th! The girls throw like so slow, also get strikes! So, I began my observation on the other lanes. If I were to throw the ball instead of sliding it, it will go straight!
Round 2 began. I got 1st! I at least hit the pins every turn unlike previously. Tian Hong played solo, beat me flat. Got like 3 strikes for him, I got only 1! Terus I all semangat to play bowling already. Then after that, we went to KFC. The girls seriously was arguing where to eat. But only Sumay didn't really care. The moment I asked her come go makan, her eyes open big big! Then she smile. Like never eat in ages. Lol. After that, chit chat for awhile, then go home.
Ahem... Now, I kinda feel weird to mix around with girls. So not used to mix with younger girls. But because she's there, I have to someway or another. Feel weird still cause I usually mix with more mature group, about my age or older. I don't mind the shopping girls do, it's the conversation that they talk about. A little way past my time. Anyway, I discovered and double confirm that the girl I like is blur, to somewhat call, the max. Still, she interests me. Time to time, she will look at me for God knows why. Maybe staring at space. I'm still hit by 'she's not easy to fall in love' thing. For once, she's the girl that I rush into things? This won't happen if she's not enroll for National Service I guess.
Oh well, to be continued =D
posted at 11:25 PM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Plan memang went havoc today. I woke up about 11.30am, got ready and went to Yvonne's house. The plan is, I'm to go for a meeting in Tian Hong's house. And today's plan, I'm suppose to go out for movies with Yvonne cause it's her birthday. So, I decided to get for them tickets but Yvonne suddenly couldn't make it cause she has dinner plans with her family. Around 1, I picked up Yvonne, drove to Jetty to pick up Chi Lin. Since I didn't really know where Chi Lin's house, I also told Sumay that I will pick her and JiaYi at her house. Didn't know it was out of the way.
Meeting's at 2pm, Sumay's house is at Island Glades. Way out of the way but since I promise already, I have to go. Sumay messaged me pula that she's hungry and asked whether I nearby her place already or not. I just told her to eat something light first before I arrive. Reached, pick her up, 4 girls in the car, pakat, say I drive so slow. OBVIOUSLY! For their safety what! Plus it's jammed. I was about 5 minutes late. Luckily I picked them up cause their initial driver came extremely late. See, I'm fast =D
Here's the thing, there are 4 girls. One of them I like. Try guessing who =D Meeting was pointless, as usual. I would rather go out on a date. She was the odd one, the one that didn't bring a notebook or a pen. Something a waitress would need and she don't have it. So I borrowed my pen to her. I haven't had a single clue on what she was doing in the meeting. One minute she was quietly there, suddenly talkative. Then suddenly she's leaning on the wall, complaining backache. Pity her that she have to work. So fragile. Lol.
I tried getting close to her, succeed but no progress. My plan was I can have a chance to talk with her cause we were suppose to talk about stuff. Well, one of the girls already know about this but pretended. She has work at 5.30pm so I have to bring her to eat before hand. Meeting was suppose to finish at 4 but we began moving out at only 4.30pm. By the time we reached Gurney, it was already 5 so I dropped at the front entrance so I could park my car. BUT THEY DIDN'T GO EAT, INSTEAD, THEY WENT TO THE TOILET FOR THE DURATION I PARK MY CAR ON THE TOP FLOOR! Met up with them, they decided to go my way, Kim Gary's =D
When we were going up, she left cause she don't have time to eat in a restaurant so she probably went and get some fast food. I was really disappointed and I didn't even see her leave. When I turn behind, she was already gone. I asked the group that we should at least accompany her until she goes to work but without vain. But anyway, I treated them Kim Gary's in occasion of Yvonne's birthday. Chat for awhile until Eng Wooi and Tian Hong came. How I wish she didn't have work. When they 2 arrived, I got a little stress out so I left them in the restaurant after paying, head to the arcades and play. They even asked me what happen and why I suddenly went off. I just said stress. I plan it out so perfectly and it was a near disaster for me and her.
Time to time, she sneak aside and SMS me. She asked me to come over to her work but the group couldn't cause their movie was about to start. It was planned for 5 or 6 but since the others join us, they plan it for 7 which I don't want. She asked me to stick around until 10.30 so we can have dinner but I have to decline cause I myself have to work. How I wish today was Saturday! All the chances, failed to accomplish. Eventhough she's younger than me, she's like her age states. Mostly nowadays everyone is quite immature. She's funny and silly though =D
Anyway, let's start another chapter some other time. Till then =D
posted at 12:02 AM
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Lol, I have been having a blast this whole week! I suddenly so strong and powerful! Kessler's POWER! I know it's a bit cocky but, me and my cousin, Sherwynd is gonna plan something huge! We are gonna hit all the restaurants in Gurney, taste the best in the menu, just to find out which suits the atmosphere. Yes, it's to find the perfect date place! I actually got the best place and it's QE2 no matter what time you go! I love that place but I need a list to choose =D Gurney would be the best and most strategic place. Ice cream? You got it! Steak? You got it! Coffee? You got it! And it's all in Gurney!
I had one of the best days of my life, this girl I like, we progress very fast. She is working in a shop in Gurney (private) and on her first day some more. I had to send some stuff to my cousin so we meet up at the arcades. She told me about where and when she works but I didn't want to meet her just on the first day cause don't know what her boss would think. I spend a few minutes in the arcade and I know she won't reply me fast. I wanted to ask her out for dinner after work or something but I don't really think she would read my messages in time.
And so, I estimate it's time on when the shop is ready to close. I was right and she sadly washing the dishes. I called out for her and she was like so happy to see me. That smile. We talked for just a bit then I asked her about dinner. She was so disappointed cause she couldn't even after work since her parents is fetching her back straight away. At least she gave me a head start that I can fulfill it if I informed her first. Too bad. But, she was still thrilled that I invited her for dinner tomorrow. I promised that if she passes her driving test, I would treat her.
About this girl, she's pretty much average. I don't know why but she's a little blur in her case. Very hard to make decisions. She is hard to fall in love with people (a little disadvantage there), should be zero experience. According to me, she's quiet, according to her and her friends, she's talkative. She's a girl who haven't decide her life yet cause she's being very careful. She loves to eat, I don't know why. She's not fat but tall for a girl. Obviously I'm still taller =D She's sweet and funny, a person that can interact (maybe this is the talkative part). I met her 3 or 4 years ago and I wasn't close to her that time at all. Then I get to know her and I find her sweet and humble. Luckily she's not that desperate type of girl or those demanding ones. That for sure, I would know. I think she's the type that would wait forever for that prince charming. Still, I got to give it a shot.
I usually don't do this fast, I take it slow. Understand the girl, not right away but just take time to know her. Only then I could tell whether she's the right one. As for this case, I have to haste cause I fear that she's going to National Service and hearing a lot from it, a girl is usually hooked up after it. So, I just jump out of the box for once, do what I can do. I do see progress though. Regardless of what, whether she accepts me or not, I would just give my all. I guess I want to tattooed a memory of me before she goes to National Service. It's just me and her.
Anyway, speaking of which, I do face problems when getting her. Firstly, it's the revealing part. Somehow I believe, revealing isn't the best option in the early stage. That's why I mix with my long gone friend I know when I met with this girl time. No, there's nothing between us. Indeed, rumours started to spread. That I was over friendly with her but she's a friend. A dear friend. I have an attitude of showing no interest on the girl I really like. It's the shy-ness I guess. Everyone of her friends asked me but I deny and instead, I make them even confused. Even the girl I like asked me but she understood me the most. I told her no and she even understood why. I know her and that girl (the one that thought she was the one) for 3-4 years already. It's only understandable that we catch up after so long. Secondly, it's the get to know part. I seriously don't know much about her but I'm willing to sit down, talk whole day about it. Third, it's the appearance. Thinking on how to appear, what would I appear as a lover, what this and that. Gosh, it's headache.
But eventhough unsuccessful, I would seriously like to stick as friends. The way I'm now, it's a lot to the friend side. Something I would fear if she make me a BFF. Then, surely no chance already. Note to self, if you after that girl, avoid this! My advise, don't do what friends would do. Do something else, more romantic. Trust me, you don't want to be a BFF if you like the girl!
This post is dedicated to that girl, although she will never find this blog =D What's her name? I wouldn't tell =d
posted at 1:51 AM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I had one of the best nights in my life, thanks to Yvonne =D
Finding a gift for a girl is never easy. Lol, honestly. Called up Sau Cheng to ask what to get her. I was standing in front of the teddy bear section when she said not to buy a teddy bear...... Alamak.... So I head to Maggie T and was asked to go else. Maggie T according to Madam Sau Cheng is........ For 13 years old! So she asked me to go down to Padini and get Vincci, which I did. Knowing nothing about Yvonne, I just got her a bracelet =d
Too bad now my phone sudah KOed so I can't upload pictures. Got there around 7++ then waited for the others to arrive. We played bluff! BLUFF RULES! Yvonne's mum was so sporting, she even dance around and was the main attraction! Lol. Then she went out to get us 'young' adults beer! HOW COOL IS THAT!? Since a lot of them is Yvonne's age (18 years old), they just only got the chance to drink beer. A girl drank 1 can, emo straight. Started calling her lover or something like that. Cried cause he didn't pick up I think. A junior of mine was also at the party. He terus KO at can number 2! He terus started crying and all =D
Boo Leong bought her a gift from Forever 21 and I was like, she's 18! That's why it's really hard to find gift for girls. Sau Cheng complained that us boys are harder and expensive. Not entirely true =D Lol. We drank and drank but by the time I drank my 6th can, all the beers are finished. Yvonne's mum everytime see us, call us to bottoms up. About 3 full cans bottoms up straight. I got tipsy over beers...... BEERS! The food was alright, the environment was there. Thank God I was one of the adults (above 18) so I bullied all the younger ones. For the price, I went back, forgotten my laptop in her house. Gone back today to get it and tried to fix my handphone at her place but too bad.
Oh yeah, I met that girl I gain interest there too. I wouldn't say love, INTEREST. I barely know her. She's too quiet. At times, I wish she was really staring at me because she did a few times. Yeah, I have to syiok sendiri sometimes. As usual, didn't get a chance to talk to her much. That's a problem I always face. Other people mia, can talk like best buddies. And she is not what she seem. Next chance I get to meet her would be................................................. Rover's Campfire? Now, how should I approach without gaining suspicious?
Well, from what I see, she's modest. A kind of girl that don't go out too often. For me, she's cute and her smile can make you smile. Perhaps a happy go lucky girl, not much of a pushover. The main thing I like about her, she's quiet. Yes, that's what I like. Not easily influenced or fool. Interacts with boys at minimum or not at all...... Okay, maybe that's bad for me =d Please don't be lesbian............ This type of girl cannot let you get jealous cause she won't be mixing with too many boys =d Hope everything is right. Only problem is, I know her long time ago and find her decent only now. I just know her know her but last year, I talked to her again and feel some vibe. She came into my dream, I don't know why. I got to know a bit of her but I wasn't showing much of a boyfriend material. I apparently went to her house before which I seriously forgotten until she reminded me to the max. Lol.
Also, I got some info. I actually don't believe it. In her school, our names were mention back then. Like when I was form 3 or something. I know my name was mention (confirmed!) and they really love TC2. Too bad it have to end. I won't say who but my name was mentioned on PMs until people come asking what I did =D Feel proud for once. Obviously I was called the bully. More about this girl, she wasn't in the same patrol with me before. Miss a year! Practically everyone in Rovers (high ranker) know about this crush already cause I revealed it in a game of truth and dare. But this time, I got 2 crush instead of the regular one. But the 1 crush I don't think I will try cause I had that crush a long time ago. It already died off so I have doubts. It feels like cheating her and it don't feel right but I'm indeed close to her. She's one crush (former) that I was ever close with.
Anyway, my hair really sucks but I have to patience. Once I go to KL, my hair will be straighten, dyed and cut. I told this to my mum and she was freaking out saying that I look better short. I like short hairs but I really want to try something new. My long hair always disturbs my eyes and forehead! I can actually tie a 3-5 cm ponytail now.
posted at 6:13 PM
Saturday, January 2, 2010
It was a beautiful New Year, yeah, I kinda like mine. A bit lonely but still alright. I guess I need a girlfriend for this case =D
Anyhow, we went for BBQ and it was great. After party, we head to the hotel room, play games. I was the first to vomit since I lost a lot. Then comes to the truth and dare game. I always picked truth. Always kena about my ex (sorry, they asked me) but then I realize, no offense, it's time to move on, although I wish it'll be as sweet as before but I cannot relive the same moment. I have been loyal, I done my part. I'm done of being too loyal anymore so I'm moving on. I don't need any space anymore. Silly, I used to say I could live without a girl but when I got them, I let them slip.
3 girls I have fallen in love, 3 other girls I have rejected =D For me, it's not easy to fall in love and with the right girl, what more, letting slip the right one. Those girls I rejected because I was loving one of those 3 girls and yes, they came in between! Honestly, it's been more than a year and I said to myself, I'm over it. Lol. If you ever read this ex (cause you don't talk to me no more), whatever I teach you before we couple, remember them. Not all boys are who they are, including myself...... Especially myself. I see that you changed a little, I hope you are still you and then we can still be friends. I told you all the type of girls I don't like right? Don't be them!
I would seriously not blame a person to love anyone, dying for them (including suicide) except I might call them stupid. The fact that their life belongs to their parents. Love is the best thing in my life, it's the worst thing in my life.
Anyway, moving on. My research has been completed. For Penang only and it's only through observation. Schools, mainly school culture, infects the way of how the girl would become. English girl schools, they tend to be more demanding and smart. Don't get offended, I said 'more', doesn't mean 'very'. Chinese girl schools, they are very much loyal and easily fooled. Why? Their schools are more strict and Chinese schools are known for their 'homeworks' that they don't have time to find guys. When they got them, they grab on hold to them. They don't control, they get controlled. They are easily fooled with words, can love you a lot which at times I find it quite annoying. And if you haven't noticed, what girls are mostly the emo type or why is it they are lines on their arm? Cause they can emo very very easily. English girl schools, they take what they want and only what they want. They tend to control their men but once proven useless, abandon. Serious shit. Don't blame them, it's for their survival. Everyone wants the best life for their future. Despite all this, I would choose English girl schools =D If say co-ed, they are between la.
Now, I tell you why I stand on my grounds. They are 2 types of women, obviously mature and not mature ones. The mature one will take say 100% of a guy, give in when needed. When the men let's say, drops to a mere 70%, the mature one will still hold to them. That's because their 70% is stronger than their 30% (obviously). As for the not mature one, somehow their 30% can beat..... The not mature ones are easy to find, very very easy. The mature ones, even easier! Yeah, easier. I find that, girls, they tend to stick to a guy and they can only love ONE at a time. It's practically impossible for them to love TWO. Impossible. When I say love, it's love for their heart and shits. Not their down there. So, that makes girls, mature side more. They usually tend to turn immature after relationship.
Moving on, me and a couple of friends went grading girls school. The bitchest to whatever is better. First school goes to MGS! Second school goes to ST.GEORGES! Third school goes to CPT! Fourth, CGL! Fifth, CDK! Sixth, PCGHS! Others all in goodie goodie. Too good is too GOOD TO BE TRUE!
To be continued ~
posted at 12:04 PM
Friday, January 1, 2010
Well, the year has come to end and what's the best way to enjoy it? Everyone has their ways, me, it's to enjoy drinking. Play cards, drive around, eat, chit chat. That's my kinda of way. First, a little sentence to make my day.
The quiet day to tingle my skin,
The sound of being so much alive,
The laugh, smile, burst around,
Then when I close my eyes,
Then when I go to bed,
I know I'm going to wake up,
For this world and only for some.
Anyway, as New Year's end, I see some people enjoying their own time in Gurney that they don't reply anymore =D Anyhow, I drank a little, just before we wrap everything up, I bottled down 5 pacs of Chivas straight. Practically naming my death will to everyone if I don't wake up. Obviously I couldn't sleep so I head to eat nasi kandar. As usual, I love myself when I'm tipsy, no fear of driving. I was practically better in driving when I'm under influence =D Me and Kel talked to each other for like God knows how long. Talking about stuff (too sensitive to say). About around 7am, we head back home.
I slept like a log, woke up 4 hours later fully refresh. Anyhow, I still got another party left to attend, I don't mind getting wasted this time =D
posted at 11:37 AM