And so the line goes as it goes (what?). Tension memang arising within me. Body all in pain, my leg got blister again for wearing those football boots and I still don't think I have enough sleep. Going out at 3 in the morning (yeah, not 4 in the morning) is a regular thing in my schedule even if I don't have work.
My progress in football is going better. Now my air time catch got problem again. Seriously saying, the best place to train is in my area. Almost everyone come and goes from there. It's a pretty famous area for it's football players (I'm not joking), one of the best hangout area and of course, the notorious Gelugor Gang (currently most notorious and listed number 1(and so they say)) lives there. Speaking of which, it's not a place for girls cause they will somehow hate the place and cabut away. My advice, don't come here or stay indoors at all time. If you wanna come, bring a boy (at least 1. More female companion is useless, trust me) or not you will be tortured just by walking. I saw girls kena that look of stare (o.O) for every bike that passes them and if they are a famous bitch, they will kena all kinds of disturbance like shouting and all lah. And the seriously sexy and pretty girls, they will kena but usually the boys will kena more. They will stare at that girl until forget to turn in the junction. Pure stupidity.
Plans are created, plans are ruined. That's life. It gets frustrating sometimes. Out of all that fails, I regret having them even created. Unplanned plans are better. Failing them is making us less closer than perfect. We don't need to reach the stage perfect cause no can. At least we should aim that and hope the best. Try your best and never never say no. Accept the fact of your mistakes and don't say no. I have another story that happened to me recently.
I brought Kevin to Bayview Hotel to get a job in the kitchen. Upon reaching there, we had to head to the Human Resource department but they want experience. And so we sat outside of the department trying to persuade Kevin to enter our bar. Since we were there and all, at least try out for the job. If they needed unexperienced worker, we will know right away. Then he go bragging that the kitchen can get working experience and his mother won't let. Also, he claims he never lied to his mother before. Seriously, his mother is getting in my nerve. RM 5 per hour without tips and commission yet. Where can you find that job? So, it's 6 hours of working. Better than Shell Station right? I quited from there and Kevin wants to come out from there. At least start small first. The way he talk is like insulting us working as a low waiter. Guess what? His work pay RM700 a month and that's RM100 more than Shell Station!
While talking, our supervisor walks by and asked us of our arrival. He then help us out but failed since the head chef didn't want people. My supervisor's psychology trick actually (he knew can get one), so he also recommend Kevin to work at Carmen. Then he goes rejecting it saying that no matter what, he will work as a chef. Hey dude, the work you are applying, isn't chef. You are cutting the veggies for the chef. Not work as a chef. We wasted our time and apart for the day. Then the next day as I was with Karthi sitting down near our spot, Kevin came with another guy. This is the conversation. Well, Karthi is siding me and trying to tembak Kevin on my behalf.
Karthi : Hey, so how you doing. What work you in already?
Kevin : I got a job offer in a restaurant for RM6 per hour.
Donovan : (I was sleepy and not surprised. Seriously, if you want to cheat me, do it properly. Such a sudden that the job offer came half a day after we fight and such a sudden it's RM1 higher than my job. Please, I asked around while I was helping him. There is no such job in the kitchen that will pay more than RM5 for indirect servicing. Never.)
Karthi : So, where is the place?
Kevin : Don't know. Some restaurant in Queensbay.
Karthi : (Wow. His banging stories already.) What's the name?
Kevin : Don't know. I must follow a woman there.
Karthi : (Who the fuck doesn't know where they working?? And all the sudden he is without a job offer and the next day, he got this wonderful offer?) What?? Who doesn't know where the working lah?
Donovan : Hey Karthi. Don't hear him crap already lah. Whatever it is, next time when you want me to follow you get any job, don't fucking call me anymore. You wasted Eugene's time and my time yesterday only.
Kevin : (He was freaking hot already) I told you already! My mother won't let!
Donovan : Fuck you! It's not about your mother this time alright? When the hell are you going to think for yourself? WHEN!!??
Kevin : Hey, she takes care of me so I must listen to her!
Donovan : Don't give me all this bullshit ok? Never lie to your mother before? Please.
Kevin : Why do you force people that is not interested!!??
Donovan : Hey friend! I never force people. You have no fucking options when you asked my help. I tried helping you and this is what you do to us? And why the hell you cannot try for other things first? You wanted to go out so badly, why not go find other place!! Why find me!!!?? (Seriously, I was angry. He wanted to quit his job so much so he went to find other jobs. The fact was that he was suppose to quit earlier than me but I somehow left earlier. He is picky of his job and choose highly pay job and easy work. He also reject good jobs and highly paid jobs thinking that it's useless and all. The more job offers he have, the more he will reject just to show his ego)
Kevin : I told you right!! I'm not interested!!
Donovan : Alright fine! But you should have told us that and don't fucking reconsider anymore! Tell you what, just forget about the thing! (Then I took my nap with my knee)
Kevin : (After less than 30 seconds) Karthi, you know arrr. People nowadays like to force people in doing what they are not interested.
Donovan : (I raised my head) Hey! Fucker! I told you to forget about right!!??
Kevin : Who's calling fucker now!!??
Donovan : I'm!!! You asked who is calling fucker right!!?? I'm!!! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT????
Kevin : ........
Karthi : Hey Don, chill man. Alright, both of you forget about it.
Kevin : Whatever lah. Let's go.
Kevin's friend : Ok.
Here I go again. Haix.......
I thought of her in my dreams again. This time I was a useless bastard in my own dream. Imagine that. My own dream.
Aside from that, my body still aching due to the lack of sleep. It's been happening every single day even if I don't have work. Today (12am), Kuma, Eugene and Yugesh came to the bistro and I had to come out money for beers. What to do. Seriously, they are freaking noobs. I left work early since they weren't a lot of customer and these guys act like drunkards in the streets. I nearly got accident with them. Plus, I have to come out money for the already rich Eugene. What is more stupid is, those guys got fined for not using the motorbike lane. How can a Wave 100 and C70 beat the police? Why didn't they just run away? At least Eugene is smarter that he paid for their coffee money but Yugesa, didn't get the clue given by the police. That's dumb.
After my contract with the bistro finish, I'm going for DJ training. I requested for at least 2 month and if succeed, I can start working as DJ in an outlet. The only thing hard to do is remixing the song. There is still 4 more spots in Penang. Well, here's the list:
3 in Penang Island, 1 in mainland
1 in Johor Bahru
1 in Shanghai
1 in Cambodia
1 in KL (if I not mistaken)
That's all for now. Here I go again.
You're truly what I'm satisfied of,
Balance in everything,
Only good in sports,
Perhaps that's why I admired you,
But my love for you,
Is not higher than a puppy.
You're truly an angel walking down the corridor,
I couldn't believe my eyes either,
You're everything through my eyes,
I understand why I admired you,
I learn how to love again when I love you,
But my love for you,
Ended as I release those chains,
Tied around you,
Forcing you to remain in my heart.
You're truly someone I never knew that I would love,
It came hitting me all the sudden,
You're someone that I want to protect,
Innocent and pure,
Clueless in many things,
But my love for you,
Couldn't reach far enough as we apart,
From our journey we split,
I only wished I'm right beside you now,
Perhaps that will change something.
I learn the true beauty of love,
Only through love I find,
Pain and suffering,
The beauty of love is something,
Hard to get but worth everything,
Tender and flawless,
I learn to choose rather than,
Making love takes it's course,
I'm selfish and never did want to,
Let go of what I believe is my love,
I take granted of girl's kindness,
Showing what I can give,
I never did return their love for me,
Then this determine my fate,
I'm doom with no love,
I can only have love's poison,
Which kills me instantly,
I figure it's only remedy,
To not love and let love comes,
That way I can be cured with,
Eternal love's remedy.
Just like what I said, not yet busy. Of course, I'm dead bored. That's why I decided to write a blog. Since I'm a casual worker, I have more free time still before the bigger events. I can sleep about 10 hours a day. I wonder why. But seriously, all of my time spend to sleep reduce nearly 4 kg of my weight. I seriously have problem with my stomach. Wait a minute. Let's think back of the past and ask myself, which part of my body is NOT WRONG!
Firstly, my hair just grow too fast. People takes a month to grow but mine, takes 2 weeks. Secondly, my leg. It has a freaking extra bone! Even the doctor said, "People are losing their bones and you are having extras. Thirdly, my shoulder. I was always critic by almost everyone for that. I can't seem to relax or be stiff at times. It just wouldn't be normal. Fourthly, my whole body. Cannot withstand pressure nor I'm weak. At least I can imagine my strength when I get angry. Of course, I hate it when I'm angry. Only a few manage to see that. Fifthly, my hearing. It's bad but I was granted with the power of limitless eyes power instead. I been playing all types of games (console, computer and such) before I even entered kindergarten! I have to thank my uncle for that and I still am surprised I can see well. Sixthly, I ain't that smart and I can't remember words most of the time. Something wrong with the brain perhaps.
D, just face it man. Your getting old. That's a freaking fact. Still, people call me young cause I look very young. Have to thank my mother for that. She's 48 and people still call her 25! Anyway, great game yesterday. Improving very very well. I just became good in defending but still got problem with getting the ball in mid-air, stopping the ball and dribbling. My heading also got problem.
Right now I need to:
Practice dribbling
Practice chipping (sometimes worked)
Practice heading
Practice juggling the ball
Practice stopping the ball without bouncing it always
Practice kicking at where the freaking keeper is there
Once this is good, I will make myself midfielder and forward. I will want to start playing elsewhere after becoming good. My aim is to follow a friend/senior to where ends meet and create ourself a team. With enough skills, I hoping to beat him too. Seriously, I'm still far behind.
Oh well, here I go again.
Damn, I hate working on Saturday night. It's always full with people. More people, more problem. After that day, our supervisor gave us a whole schedule of list of various events. We got charity aid on February 2nd, some reunion dinner with the BayView staff and Hip Hop Avenue on the 31st of January. That's means, hip hop sensation. The thing is, I don't know what to wear.........
One thing I hate about myself. I get tired easily, my hair is long already and my body is always aching here and there. My legs aren't what it used to be either. I can move easily but cannot withstand pressure anymore. After today, I decided to stop blogging for at least a month less cause I got a lot to do. My sleeping hours is very hectic too. Oh well,
There I go again...
It's been long since I got screwed by my own pure blood mother (just to make it unique). My small sister is having love bites all over her neck. And, she is form 2! Love bites!!?? What a sight! Even I didn't noticed that and my mother do! Her boyfriend have been coming to my house regularly and my mother don't like that. His nothing but he can't behave and I hate it when they refer Donovan's small sister. Even my mother refer to me and not my bloody sister. She is the one to blame the most. Well, she doesn't mix much with anyone and when she does, she definitely won't let go. She is also getting stubborn and I'm getting busy and too tired. Shit, I don't even have time to take care of my girl friends and shouldn't her lover been protecting her? Because of those love bites and my mother sharp eyes, he making their relationship going far apart!
Lastly, I already screw her up for bringing other boys to the house without my knowledge. For me, I only will tell you once and I did so I screw her upside down until she cried. The next morning, she brought 2 girls in the house. One of them was the one that called her to join gangster-ism. Just imagine that all those lecture that took so long for you to tell people, just went down the drain the next day. I'm to a point of leaving away from all this and focusing my own life. I have no time and I don't wish to waste them on my sister that doesn't listen. Even if she is more bloodline, I don't renown that always. Maybe I failed as a brother but I did what I can and I don't mind failing. When she is in trouble, my friends would go help her without my knowledge. That always happens and she is still stubborn. I had to drag my ass down sometimes to save her when I know she is in trouble.
Well, have to go. Bye!
The offer for the DJ, I finally decided to take it. It's good to do it and I don't mind leaving Carmen. Day by day, Carmen is getting worst. All because of sales target. That is one reason all the permanent staff except for one is leaving. I'm not sure why but all the sudden, those permanent staff that works for years wanted to stop. Maybe cause the outlet manager is too much. They also started bringing new people in. Since the DJ's offer is good, I will go and try it out. It will be a great chance to learn something. Let's see. I done the service and public relation department. And now I'm going more deeper in the entertainment and public relation department.
If so, I will have to accomplish my duties somewhere first before leaving it for a long term. I will talk to DJ Raj regarding about this. After that, my whole life will have to change. It's for the best. I mean, 4 times of pay increased in a year? It's not about the money but why let go of a good chance? I only hope I can stick to it. Oh well, here I go again.....
Yes, the feeling of being in two place at the same time. Living there for so long and never had a chance to choose. That's where I'm. In Earth, between the heavens and the dreadful hell. When the light shines it bring hopes and when the dark pours over the day, it turns to emptiness. The thing, why is it more relaxing in the night compared to the day? Something not logic. What are those night crawlers doing at night, a peaceful time?
Skipping that apart, I began rewriting another story. If only I'm a artist, I wished I can draw rather than writing it. Pictures show more details and you can have your readers have the exact feeling and exact picture of what you are trying to tell. If only I could. I had read Ichigo 100% once again. Truly, it's the most best manga I ever read so far. By far, this 3 manga is my favourite.
Ichigo 100%

Love Hina

I's

(Note from blogger: They may be a little perverting pictures (maybe not a little) but the story is really nice. A true masterpiece. Ichigo 100% and Love Hina is mostly censored (depending on who translated it I guess) but I's has a little nude pictures. A LITTLE!)
Today, it will determine part of my life. I hope to get a comment and advice to all readers of my blog. I will only talk through this.........
After work, I went to the VIP booth to relax and met DJ Raj. Chat with him a little. This is the conversation:
Me : Hey Raj, good job...
DJ Raj : Yeah...
Me : Anyway, how long you been working here? I never got a chance to asked you...
DJ Raj : Oh well, I'm working here for like, nearly 4 years in Carmen but was a DJ for 15 years already.
Me : Really?? That's long... I'm also interested in DJ... Kinda cool and all..
DJ Raj : Hmmm.. Actually, I'm finding people who are interested.. Are you??
Me : Me?? Of course...
DJ Raj : I'm looking for people.. Perhaps need another person too...
Me : Really??
DJ Raj : Yes.. Well, I can hook you up...
Me : Sure... I'm interested to hear..
DJ Raj : Alright.. Here's the thing.. If you want, I can bring you in.. I will place you in an outlet to practice for say, 3 months and if you are really teruk case one, 6 months.. The thing is, under training, you won't get paid at all.... From 7pm until 9pm, you will cover the Pro DJs with just a simple change of music and all until the Pros come.. Then they will train you.. To the time I feel that you can be a DJ, you will start as a DJ and get paid... Starting price would be RM1500 per month.. We will teach you to talk, party (it's part of a job) and all... If we want R&B, means R&B but not all the way.. You must know to put the song at the right time..
Me : Huh?? That's really high for me already...
DJ Raj : Yes, but you will have to stop working here if you wanna join...
Me : That won't be much a problem since I work here 4 days a week...
DJ Raj : Yes but we will want you to train... Unpaid but once you get paid, every 3 months, you salary will increase.. It's not so bad... Cause last time when I started, I only got RM300 a month...
Me : Wow.. Wondered how you survived..
DJ Raj : Hahaha... Well, give me you number and I will contact you...
Me : Alright (as I gave him my number)... I will think about it first... Anything, I will just tell you..
Personally, it's a good job offer but I will have to sacrifice my studies. I love music and I sure like to party. If I choose this, I will have to abandon my dreams to become a computer programmer. And I will have to make my mother sad since all this is only temporary (for her). I mean, training without pay is bad but the investment is good. I can find a part time in the morning. Fact is, I can't continue Form 6. Once I started working, I won't be able to study at all. I already tried working and studying and it didn't worked out. I can't go to college cause I scared I will just waste the money. I can work until I'm stable and study later. Problem is, if I study, I cannot work. Then I will just miss a lot. I don't know what to do. DJ Don or just Donovan? I can party all the time even if I'm working but I won't really have a life. Stress. Please advice. I don't need to know who but every advice/lesson is important to me.
Sincerely,
FinalDK
Practice your leg and it can,
bring you more miles and speed,
stronger you will become in distance,
and long lasting as you stand.
Practice your hands and it can,
bring you swiftness and great handiworks,
stronger you will become in errands,
and long lasting as you hold.
Practice your mind and it can,
bring you ideas and capability of receiving knowledge,
stronger you will become in wider range,
and long lasting as you can withstand pressure.
Practice your heart and it can,
bring you a heart to love and be loved,
stronger you will become as it grew,
and long lasting as you understand.
Practice your eyes and it can,
bring you place of interest and love,
stronger you will become in vision,
and long lasting as you observe.
Practice your whole body and it can,
bring you to victory and beyond imaginations,
stronger you will become in many,
and long lasting as you obey.
The meanings, if you practice your legs it can bring you further in life. To whatever distance as you wish and to whatever speed you want. Practice your hands and it can work for you with swift and accurate not to mention efficiency. Successfully completing your work. Practice your mind and it can bring desire to learn and stay calm in whatever matter. In consideration the mind's power. Practice your heart and you will learn to love someone. Even to be loved by someone and paying them back. Practice your eyes and it can see the beauty of the world we lived in. Improving your observation to learn. Lastly, practice your whole body in everything and it will guide you to success. Your strength will be limitless if and only if you obey the nature and law that are set.
(THIS IS WHAT I DO FOR BEING AT HOME ALL DAY!!!!!)
Alright, there is seriously nothing to do anymore around the house. Not to mention anywhere either. I need something new and exciting. Apart from that, I have no work today and yesterday. Even Gurney nor Queensbay amuses me anymore. Where should I go then? Last time I had fun going to the Mall is the time I went Time Square in KL. Everything there is way better than Penang. The Malls there are never deserted like BJ Complex or Megamall.
Computer is getting boring day by day. I already visit every site I know and what else should I do? Man, I seriously miss school. The time where you can sleep peacefully and hang out. Blah, that's all behind. Already asked for part time jobs during the day to keep myself occupied. This is the list.
Monday, work from 9am-5am (if office hours)
Tuesday, work from 9am-5am (if office hours)
Wednesday, work from 9am-5am (if office hours) work from 9pm-3am (bar)
Thursday, work from 9am-5am (if office hours) work from 9pm-3am (bar)
Friday, work from 9am-5am (if office hours) work from 9pm-3am (bar)
Saturday, work from 9pm-3am (bar)
Sunday, free day
Oh well, confirm my place in Carmen. The new offer not yet come to me. But I already asked for a promoter. Here I go again, bye!
Yes, we are indeed looking at the same night sky. This few years as technology grew, we weren't able to see the stars at night. Trust me, it's beautiful. Only beauty itself can relieve almost everything. A smile on your face is a little hope for you to move on. Not a lie but it shows honesty. Don't make a smile in disguise. There's no point worrying nor any point pressuring. That's life. Learn to enjoy and learn it to the fullest. Wake up in the morning pain but eat your breakfast with ease. Those food are granted to you and at least show some gratefulness or not don't eat at all. What is given, should be given back in a way. You eat to supply energy and you will have to use that energy to work. As you work, you are paid for your service with money and that money is to buy things to pay off your service. Eventually, you will buy food with that money. So when you eat, smile at the food. Of course, cover those actual reason or not, people will think you are crazy. Have dignity in the things you do and take your pride on the things you get. Accomplish your life, career, love, family and friends. Each lesson learn is valuable. Don't waste it. Through life we suffer and learn. This isn't an advise but something I learn. I don't advise people so that is why I need any thank. Why not just share with people your ideas and not receive thank? You following what's best for yourself is way better than those 2 words. The word thank you can bring a lot but the thing you do can bring more.
That's all for now folks.
I slept the whole day today. I also find out I lost weight. Damn. But luckily, I did a rather good job today at work. Before our work started, we already got screwed by Ah Siang. Not the bad type of screwing at least. Since we didn't manage to hit our target, we need to make RM1000 sales again (which is for everyday). This time is different cause we need to hit a sales of 2 liquor. And that is what I got for today. Nice commission. Ah Siang also wanted me to learn more so I can be a permanent staff which is alright for me. Problem is I don't have the transport. Overall, I'm doing alright already but the other permanent staff tend to get all of our sales. I got RM850 sales today and it's good. Tips was still good though.
I even got 2 funny event. A customer ask me to pour liquor not for him to drink but for me. I had to reject the offer for I'm not allowed to. Then a customer got drunk and hug me, twice. I just wish it was a girl and not a man. His girlfriend told me to keep the liquor and I did. But he (the person that was drunk and paid for everything), ask me to take it out twice. He keep torturing his friends to drink and they kept asking me to not bring it out. It's funny to see this guy drunk cause he actually wanted to order more liquor and he is buying for tomorrow too. Problem is, it's close on Sundays.
Too bad I couldn't get more but I swear at my area itself, I can get around 5-10 liquor. Well, at least I learned something in return. After I get a stable income, I will be able to study and work when I need to. Hopefully, a day will come. Gonna sleep so goodnight and good morning to others.
Well, 5th day in my work and I can feel the stress already. I got a problem with sleeping in the day so I'm only able to sleep less than 6 hours (that's the max). I blunder in my job sometimes and seriously, it wasn't really my night. And I have a hearing problem.
Firstly, I got my head stuck with false information. I only thought we served Tiger Draught but we also served Guinness Draught. So I always been telling the customer the wrong thing. I finally got screwed for that.
Donovan: What would you like to order sir?
Customer: Yes, I would like 2 Carlsberg Draught (that's what I heard).
D: Sorry sir, we only served Tiger Draught. If you want, we served only in can and bottle (In actual fact, we served Heineken bottle only)
C: Then I will take the 2 Carlsberg bottle.
D: (After finding out that there is no Carlsberg bottle) Sorry sir, we only have Heineken bottle.
C: (Paused for awhile) I will have the Carlsberg can (that is what I heard).
D: (Served him with the Tiger Can) (I also press it all)
C: No.... I want 2 Guinness can (I also heard that)
D: (Brought him the Guinness can)
C: No! I want 2 Guinness Stout in the mug! (aka, Guinness Draught) (He then complain to my captain)
I finally manage to serve him his right order. The freaking Guinness Draught (which I thought never exist). Luckily, none of the can was open so I don't have to pay for it. I was really pissed and I must say that I didn't do much work after that. It seems that I got fed up. We even promised Ah Siang (my supervisor) to archive the target of RM1000 but failed to do so cause most of the customers didn't order from us and my other colleague took most of the orders. Second was when a customer as for a dice. I was like huh?? Dice?? We are in a fucking pub and bistro! Go to a casino if you want one! And why the hell do you want a dice!!??
Thank god at the last minute that the place is going to close, a customer pulled me (I was walking and he pulled me hard) and requested a Black Label which enable me with a commission. I believe I had made only RM500-600 but that's enough for me. The business was very good today but I didn't get my target. Eugene got screwed a lot of times but I manage to calm him down. Even if I didn't hit the target, I'm happy enough. At least I learn something in return.
What I learned today:
There is a freaking Guinness Draught
The names of all our Managers (I mastered that)
And more about the menu (Still a little confuse and trust me, it isn't easy)
And last thing is, Carmen is one of the best pub and bistro and also a well known place. Going from the hardest without the easier step is freaking hard. That's all for now. Gotta sleep. Good night and good morning for others.
News flash (I can't believe this is my first topic either), friends can be fucked up sometimes. I mean, you help them so much and don't get thanked. If you do a mistake, a very minor one, they would just get angry or leave you behind. One time they can be friends and the next time you turn, a baseball bat come flying in.
The thing is, I helped a lot of my friends without any intention of getting something back. Of course people would wish something else in return no matter who that is. At least something. Not a betrayal. There is this type of friends who will just take and take. There is this type of friends who will just don't care whatever happen to you. And there is a friend who will help you no matter what. Only 1/3 is good.
All those words they give or advise cannot meant they are good. They may just say it for their own benefit. Who knows what they were actually thinking. I'm saying this not as a mock to whoever that don't believe this but it's a dangerous world out there. I can't say that I experienced everything but I been there and got through it. Getting stab on the back is a painful thing.
And there is those friends that you should protect. It will be a waste to just let go. Why do people need to think of pride in front of their own friends? Why not be at the same level? I got friends who talk big and when I got something better, he will also want that. If he can't get it, he will say that he knows how to get something way better. There is a limit to what you can say but don't cross the line. Cause that friend of mine in the end came asking me for help. What I know is, if you betray me once, my whole view on you is different.
That is why, if you got those type of good friends, don't let go of them. Cherish everything you have and don't go cherishing those that you don't have. Been there and done that. This is DK reporting out. LOL
Just like it said, still in progress.......... I got a lil problem with the skin making. Couldn't find the HTML Skin maker. All I could do is this for now. I will open this blog officially after posting a few of my recent pictures. Till then...
Testing the new blog...